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From journal scribblings made to blog posts, my hope is that my story somehow gives you the sense that you're not alone in your journey. Whether you're grieving, in a season of waiting, or just simply looking for a glimpse of hope, my prayer is that these words would make you feel at home.
Do you have something that you’re constantly bringing back to Jesus’ feet, only to pick up again later?
Mine is fear.
Fear of the unknown, fear of death and loss, fear of ______. You name it; I’ve been fearful of it.
How do I hold my plans, desires, and hopes with open hands and not the white-knuckled grip that I’m prone to?
This desire for my womb to flourish, good desires, indeed, can happen how I would like them to or not. I’ve learned how terrible of a god I am. I do not know what is best. I do not have a better vantage point than our loving Father. I do not see the inner workings of God’s plan. He is good. He will be my strength. He will sustain me. He will be my daily bread.Read More
“So is this y’all’s first?” My eyes would shift to my husband, Colton. I’d hesitate, force a smile, and respond, “Yeah.”
It felt insincere and forced. It felt awkward and dishonest. When people ask that question, they likely aren’t anticipating a complicated question. Just a simple yes or no should do the trick. But our story is far from simple and our hearts are still healing from the loss of our previous miscarriage, even in the rejoicing of this new pregnancy.Read More
If you aren’t familiar with the term “two-week-wait”, it is the time between ovulation and your expected period or otherwise potentially confirming pregnancy. Many women endure this wait with hope and expectancy, and at times feel loads of anxiety as they wait.
If you are all too familiar with this two-week-wait, my heart aches with you in your wait. I pray that the Lord gives you the desires of your heart and that you lean on Him solely in the midst of your waiting season. I pray that He fills you with a peace that blows your mind, regardless of what the result is after the weeks of holding your breath.Read More
I don't mean to brag but I'm like really, really good at fearing. Like expert level. Fear olympian, here! I fear things LIKE IT'S MY JOB. My entire, I LITERALLY MEAN ENTIRE, life has been stamped with battling fear. As a young tot I was afraid of everything as small as bugs (yeah, even butterflies), mannequins, any type of conflict, watching the news, and my greatest fear... death.
My fear came in the form of dwelling on "what ifs". It came in the form of comparison or fear of rejection. It came to steal my joy. It came to cripple me and bury me. Fear came to suffocate and paralyze me. It came in the form of instant terror and nausea. Fear came and lingered in my depression and anxiety. It came in the nightmares. It came in the daytime. Fear invaded my thoughts, my beliefs, and my spirit. For God did not give me a spirit of fear or timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline. (2 Timothy 1:7)Read More
Here’s the thing… God already knows our thoughts, right? He created us and sustains us. I don’t know why I fall into the trap of thinking God can’t handle the hard hitting questions. He delights when His children seek Him. When you can’t feel God’s presence, don’t just accept it. Ask God… Where are You in this?
Be real, raw, and honest. He can handle it, I promise! And then sit in the awkward silence and listen with your whole heart. There will always be questions swarming in our hearts after tragedy and loss impact our lives here on earth, but we can have a confident hope that Jesus will one day restore all things.
Now, grab yo bible and discover what God thinks when He hears you crying out to Him, the creator and sustainer. I hope these verses revive your hearts like they have impacted mine.
So so much love,
Does your mama heart feel unseen because you don't have any little ones in your arms this Mother's day? If you're feeling like your motherhood is invisible, know that the God who created you sees you and knows your heart.Read More
Have you ever prayed for patience? Let me guess, you were given opportunities to show patience... funny how that works every time. Like clockwork. I've never been naturally patient, but I've prayed for patience my entire life. "Wait" has been a four-letter-word all of my life. As I grow and learn what it looks like to trust God in the wait, I've seen his mercy and faithfulness in the midst of the "wait."
Here is my heart on how to endure the Waiting Place and ten bible verses to encourage your wanna-be patient heart.
One of my favorite verses is Hebrews 10:36, "Patient endurance is what you need now so that if you do the will of God you will receive what He has promised."
Hold onto His promises.
2 Timothy 1:7"For God did not give you a spirit of fear and timidity but of power, love, and self-discipline."
This bible verse became my anthem. My heart's cry. Ever since I was a young tot, this verse has done tremendous things in my heart and mind. The Holy Spirit is sweet, y'all. The word of God is living and active!
Here are some of my go-to Psalms that I absolutely camp on when I am in need of some biblical truth to combat the lies of the enemy. I hope these offer hope and assurance to your heart when you're tempted to fear.Read More
Friend, I crave for you to know this same joy.
So let's cheers and clink our iced coffee glasses together to the joy set before us.
Here's are some JOY-filled verses that have inspired the name of this "Due to Joy" blog.Read More
If I had a nickel every time I've been asked when I'm having kids, I'd probably have... a few dollars worth of nickels. And with those nickels, I'd embarrassingly frustrate a barista with how many nickels I've brought in, and I'd buy a couple of iced lattes and sit and talk with a friend over these thoughts.Read More
Throughout my journey of grieving the loss of our child, I remember scrounging around the internet, searching for someone to relate to or share their experience. Ever since October of 2016, I have been compiling a list of blog posts that have personally helped me and I would love to share these with you.Read More
"The Gift of Grief"
Can grief be a gift? What a bogus title, you say?
Yep, it felt weird typing it.
Here's the thing. Jesus is doing some real things within my heart, and I have to share this with the desperate hope that your heart can feel touched or understood, or if I can make one person get the sense that they're not alone in this struggle.Read More
When I'm feelin' down, I'll tell ya, I typically need some music to lift my mood. Music always seems to do the trick for me. Just me? Doubt it!
Bad advice: Listen to Taylor Swift break-up songs when you're sad.
Solid advice: Listen to the following songs when your heart is discouraged.Read More
This week I've felt hungry for peace. Just fighting for it. Knowing full-well where to get it. Just sinking back into being a hermit and trying to get along by myself. Knowing that Jesus wants me to draw closer to Him so He can give me His peace.Read More
This feeling I felt when I lost my child, and also the glimpse of fear this mother felt, makes me wonder what God must have felt when he gave his only son to die on a cross and take the sins of the world to save us and bring us to Him.
I can't imagine. I can't shake that feeling.
The most perfect human, Jesus, not deserving death, but willing to take that on to save this broken world. How undeserving am I that God would give up his child?Read More
Jesus is in the business of Joy Restoration. I can't tell you how many times I've seen this in my own life. But my hope is that my feeble attempt to share my testimony through this blog will shed some light on this beautiful characteristic of Christ.Read More