Pregnancy After Loss: The Struggle to Rejoice

Pregnancy After Loss: The Struggle to Rejoice

How do I hold my plans, desires, and hopes with open hands and not the white-knuckled grip that I’m prone to?

This desire for my womb to flourish, good desires, indeed, can happen how I would like them to or not. I’ve learned how terrible of a god I am. I do not know what is best. I do not have a better vantage point than our loving Father. I do not see the inner workings of God’s plan. He is good. He will be my strength. He will sustain me. He will be my daily bread.

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When You're Really, Really Ridiculously Good At Fearing

When You're Really, Really Ridiculously Good At Fearing

I don't mean to brag but I'm like really, really good at fearing. Like expert level. Fear olympian, here! I fear things LIKE IT'S MY JOB.  My entire, I LITERALLY MEAN ENTIRE, life has been stamped with battling fear. As a young tot I was afraid of everything as small as bugs (yeah, even butterflies), mannequins, any type of conflict, watching the news, and my greatest fear... death.

My fear came in the form of dwelling on "what ifs". It came in the form of comparison or fear of rejection. It came to steal my joy. It came to cripple me and bury me. Fear came to suffocate and paralyze me. It came in the form of instant terror and nausea. Fear came and lingered in my depression and anxiety. It came in the nightmares. It came in the daytime. Fear invaded my thoughts, my beliefs, and my spirit. For God did not give me a spirit of fear or timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline. (2 Timothy 1:7)

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20 Questions For God After Loss

20 Questions For God After Loss

Here’s the thing… God already knows our thoughts, right? He created us and sustains us. I don’t know why I fall into the trap of thinking God can’t handle the hard hitting questions. He delights when His children seek Him. When you can’t feel God’s presence, don’t just accept it. Ask God… Where are You in this?

Be real, raw, and honest. He can handle it, I promise! And then sit in the awkward silence and listen with your whole heart. There will always be questions swarming in our hearts after tragedy and loss impact our lives here on earth, but we can have a confident hope that Jesus will one day restore all things.

Now, grab yo bible and discover what God thinks when He hears you crying out to Him, the creator and sustainer. I hope these verses revive your hearts like they have impacted mine.

So so much love,

Cait

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Fear Can't Sit With Us: 10 Verses to Combat Fear

Fear Can't Sit With Us: 10 Verses to Combat Fear

2 Timothy 1:7"For God did not give you a spirit of fear and timidity but of power, love, and self-discipline."

This bible verse became my anthem. My heart's cry. Ever since I was a young tot, this verse has done tremendous things in my heart and mind. The Holy Spirit is sweet, y'all. The word of God is living and active!

Here are some of my go-to Psalms that I absolutely camp on when I am in need of some biblical truth to combat the lies of the enemy. I hope these offer hope and assurance to your heart when you're tempted to fear.

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10 Things Not To Say To A Mom Who Has Endured Miscarriage

10 Things Not To Say To A Mom Who Has Endured Miscarriage

If I had a nickel every time I've been asked when I'm having kids, I'd probably have... a few dollars worth of nickels. And with those nickels, I'd embarrassingly frustrate a barista with how many nickels I've brought in, and I'd buy a couple of iced lattes and sit and talk with a friend over these thoughts.

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The Gift Of Grief: 5 Truths Learned While Grieving

The Gift Of Grief: 5 Truths Learned While Grieving

"The Gift of Grief"

Can grief be a gift? What a bogus title, you say?

Yep, it felt weird typing it. 

Here's the thing. Jesus is doing some real things within my heart, and I have to share this with the desperate hope that your heart can feel touched or understood, or if I can make one person get the sense that they're not alone in this struggle.

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